6.29.26 - Bar Prep Day 1 (for real)
I'm restarting the Bar Prep counter because I took a very long intermission to do other things and fart around.
But now I'm in emergency time constraints (classic self-imposed problem) so it will be every day until test day all day. And it will work. Probably.
Thought of the day: Being irregular is a lifehack to make your life feel longer. My girlfriend is much smarter than me and does a little bit of everything every day. Work, hobbies, fitness, etc. This is the most efficient and pleasurable way to operate. Really. But routine makes most days feel like eachother.
I tend to focus on a couple things to the exclusion of all else for stretches. Oh this week I'm studying for finals. That week I was doing fitness stuff and sunmaxxing. This week I was reading a lot. That week I was drinking-maxxing. I have mini eras. This is extremely stupid and inefficient and I have to stop it. You progress by doing a little bit of things you like every day. You'll read more books that way. Make more progress in the gym. It's really objectively better as far as results to be more regular. You'll be way healthier. I am not trying to cope on this. The periods I have accomplished this (1L fall i think was one) I have been pretty happy and very successful.
But it's also clear that having vastly different routines for stretches and objects of focus means different periods feel more distinct, more novel, which in turn, lengthens your subjective experience of time. Time does not fly by if you live like this and months do not blend together because they are so different. In a very real sense you live longer.
Consistent novelty is what make childhood feel longer. Monotony is why adulthood flies by. I think the combo of my irregularity and frequent moving and traveling between geographies makes my life feel a little more like childhood although I'm 27.
I will have to be more regular to survive in the adult world and I know when I am I am happier. But I will probably keep the habit of demarcating "eras" so that life feels longer.
I have a childhood friend I have known since I was six who is extremely type B. He is a musical artist and a tinkerer. I told him once that we are "men ungoverned by time." This has been fun. But I think I want to be one who effectively bargains with time moving forward.
cheers,
knxnts