4.10.25 - Sometimes being in law school makes me sad
I would like to do things that help people, which is why I joined law school. I never was interested in making a lot of money. And I also wanted to be around smart people who I like.
As of now, it looks like I've been sucked into the Big Law track, working with a lot of the type of people that I don't really mesh with, and doing stuff I don't necessarily care about.
I'd like to be free, write silly things, take photographs, and do things that directly help people. But I also want to make enough money to buy lovely little girlfriend a house, and guarantee her, her parents, and my immediate family some financial security. I want to be able to take care of family if they get sick, or send a cousin money if they need it. I want to be able to have an afford several children and give them a reasonable standard of living. I want to pay for my dog's health insurance.
Unfortunately, I can't really do anything of the sort without at least a six fig income. And I'll be burdened my whole life if I don't pay these loans. So its Big Law, working in a big glass tower, for some time I guess.
I would love to just fuck all of this and go to a DA's office or something like that. Or just help renters or immigrants or something. But I guess I was too selfish and too unimaginative in my initial steps, that I am now locked onto another course.
Eventually, I hope to find my way back. Maybe in the mean time I'll be okay with just making some money.
regards,
knxnts